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    Saturday, October 25th, 2014
    2:26 pm
    Condor Street (1941, dir. Jacques Tourneur)
    (not an actual film, but I'll get to that)

    I renewed my driver's license and registration! Before they could become problems! This may not seem like much of a victory to anyone but me, but it's been a feature of my fairly austere lifestyle that the process always involves a lot of fear and anguish and money worries, up till now. But this time I pulled it off very smoothly. I did have to make a return visit because the chumps at one town's parking ticket office had failed to clear my record when I paid my tickets off, but I think that's par for the course.

    If anybody out there is in need of an RMV visit and dreading it, let me recommend the Revere RMV. It's way crowded, but the counter staff are all lovely people. There were three kind older women who took turns at the front desk while I waited (for two hours), and I never once heard a cross or hostile word out of any of them. And then the lady who actually completed my renewal was cool too. Altogether, A+++ would endorse this experience for anybody.

    How different from the episode in January 2013 when I was pulled over and my car towed, because I hadn't understood that a registration sticker was different from an inspection sticker. I don't think I blogged about this at the time, because I was too ashamed of myself for being ignorant, and afterwards I wanted to forget it had ever happened. At least a horrible experience was made as non-horrible as possible by the people involved. The police officer who pulled me over was a severe-looking woman who turned out to be as kind as she could possibly be under the circumstances. She was efficient and bloodless and unemotional about it, and I liked that. No anger, no pity, no attempts to scold me or call me "honey"; she just told me what I could do about it, made sure I got all my documentation out of the car, and had it put on a Todisco tow truck. I appreciated her neutral attitude, more than I can possibly convey. The older dude driving the tow truck dropped me off at my work. He was really nice, too. (I flinch whenever I see a Todisco truck these days, but that is not his fault.)

    But I am proud of my resourcefulness: I phoned my mom, got her to pay off my neglected excise taxes in my former town without telling her why I needed to have that done, and then paid my parking fines in Boston myself, got my new registration sticker, and took the T all the way out to East Boston in the freezing rain after dark that evening.

    It was terrifying. Everyone I actually met was nice or neutral, but the experience was fraught for me. Already, I was fearful and insecure--I'd just been deprived of my main source of mobility, and I didn't know if I was going to be able to get it back. You hear such stories about people whose cars are impounded till they can never afford them back (and I'd lose my job, and and and...)

    At the time, all I knew about East Boston was that it was a wretched hive and that was where stereotypical Crime happened, and I was hiking out Condor Street--no shit, that was its name--to a car impound lot where I was probably going to be hit on the head and robbed of my $80 cash. The quiet residential streets of row houses looked like sets for a noir film, with clouds of rain drifting through the yellow lamplight, and no one was about on foot on Condor Street but me. Obviously everybody who lived there drove wherever they went for fear of being mugged while on foot. Frankly, if a sub-Peter-Lorre bitplayer had skulked out at me with a knife, I would have been scared, but I wouldn't have been all that surprised.

    In fact, what happened was that I redeemed my car from an impound lot staffed by two bored boys who completely failed to murder me. I embraced Rhiannon, my car, begged her forgiveness, put the sticker on her plate and drove off, and I don't think I've talked about any of this till now. I even work in one part of East Boston and have friends in another neighborhood, and it has good associations these days.
    Wednesday, October 15th, 2014
    12:38 am
    May the candles on your cake burn like cities in your wake
    I turned thirty-three on Sunday, and forgot to mention it till now. So far, I like it. It hasn't altered the fact that I am really two children standing one atop another inside a big coat, but I don't think anything will change that.
    Sunday, October 12th, 2014
    12:15 pm
    Damn these bite marks deep in my arteries
    Drive-by recommendation: I watched "Near Dark" for the first time last night, and liked it very much.

    Vampire Texan murder family. Creepy yet ultimately pitiable little vampire boy. Impossible blood transfusions to rival the Bram Stoker book. No one ever says the word "vampire." Monsters scaring the horses. Monsters who travel in a big old silly-looking RV with bicycles on the back--in case they fancy stretching their legs at night? Well, at least one of the bikes is a hunting technique for the little boy, who pretends to have crashed his bike by the side of the road and then kills the person who comes to help him.

    Why the ever-loving hell can't you go to the police, human dorks? You don't have to say "vampires" when you get there. Just say, "I have information on the murder family who, you know, you already had an actual shootout with two days ago." You'll be a hero and the vampire crew will all wind up bursting into flames inside a jail somewhere the following morning.

    Director: Kathryn Bigelow. Nice. Sometimes I forget female directors are even a thing. Female horror directors are even rarer.

    Well, I know why our human dope hero doesn't go to the police after being rescued. It would have felt like a betrayal. Despite the fact that the vampires kidnapped and tormented him, he still kinda thinks of them as his people. The thing that this movie did best: making me fight on both sides at once. You don't live with people that closely, in that kind of desperation, and not bond with them. You don't stick with people through a shootout where they're laughing and screaming and the sun is coming in through the bullet holes in the wall to burn you all, and not feel some kinship with them. The good family and the evil family are contrasted: the humans eat a Norman Rockwell meal in a clean kitchen in front of billowing white curtains, and the vampires play poker in a crappy motel room and playfully threaten each other with handguns.

    I liked Jesse the Evil Dad Vampire with his face full of scars from fighting for the Confederacy. Lance Henriksen, who has been in all the films ever, apparently.

    You know what? One of the many things I like about monster/horror movies? Objectification of the male body. Coupled most often with an elaborate feast of horrible things happening to a male body. It happens every time there's a monster effect applied to a body that we're invited by the camera to examine at our leisure. It's been happening forever--look at the first appearance of the Creature in the James Whale Frankenstein, where Karloff enters the room and turns ve-rr-y slowly so you can look his monstrous physical form up and down as much as you want. This occurred to me during the many shots in Near Dark of the hero staggering around bent over, puking on his shoes, his stomach rejecting human food, people stripping his clothes off, lying on a lab table getting blood transfusions. Objectified to hell and gone. I like it. 
    Monday, October 6th, 2014
    11:29 pm
    My word is firm: firmer than sleep or the strength of heroes.
    Feeling crappy, can't work, can't write, can't concentrate on anything; I'm starting a cold which involves a sore throat that feels like someone has kicked me under the chin. I'm slouching in bed, under the Wendigo blanket (I'll explain that later), feeling very sorry for myself and planning on going to bed early. I owe posts and e-mails and other communications to some of you, and I'm sorry to falter like this. It's a shame that a raging cold is the only thing that can get me into bed before midnight.

    On the plus side, continuing my obsession with the Sanderson sisters, I just noticed that Winifred's spellbook has some extracts from the Kalevala. Evidence. (Look at the left-hand page in the second gif.)

    I said on Tumblr: Obviously Winifred Sanderson was a folklorist as well as an epic-level witch, and absorbed many different traditions into her handmade spellbook. Either that or the prop creators needed filler text and grabbed the first volume of poetry that came to hand, but I like my version better.

    Also, here's a screencap of the old and badassed creed of witchcraft; it's from a papyrus, and Wikipedia says it's ancient Thessalian without really citing a source for this:

    "If I command the moon, it will come down; and if I wish to withhold the day, night will linger over my head; and again, if I wish to embark on the sea, I need no ship, and if I wish to fly through the air, I am free from my weight."

    (Just to go from the sublime to the practical, there's a lunar eclipse coming up on October 8. Local times and dates to be found here.)
    Saturday, October 4th, 2014
    4:32 pm
    Now, brute, one last time will we play the game out: "Warlock" (1989)
    (from my Tumblr because why not. Look HERE for stills.)

    Just watched this again recently and I love it to bits. It’s as if this movie was made in an alternate reality where the filmmakers grew up reading the work of Gemma Files.

    This movie contains:

    —Julian Sands as an evil blond pretty-man known only as the Warlock, frequently seen in toe bondage as depicted above. He launches himself through a timey-wimey vortex thing into modern Southern California and runs amok. (AMOK, AMOK) He has a ponytail of ultimate villainy. He smirks all the time. He literally eats children. It is likely that you will find him hot and then feel dirty for that reaction. He is in search of the Grand Grimoire, a book which wants to be found and used to bring on the Apocalypse.

    —Lori Singer as a jaded modern-day Californian jerk who was just going about her business when a warlock and then a witch-finder invaded her home, killed her housemate and wrecked the place. She gets hexed and aged up to like two hundred years old, she gets better, she levels up and stops being obnoxious, and she defeats ancient evil while griping about it all the way.

    —Richard E. Grant as witch-finder Giles Redferne from Puritan Boston. In wolf furs, carrying a bullwhip. That was totally a Puritan thing, right? Right. He is Brooding and In Pain Deep Down, and yet manages to be a person and not just a bundle of film cliches. He figures out the modern world quickly, manages not to go for the obnoxious time-traveler jokes, and drags Kassandra all over the map hunting down the Warlock and the Grand Grimoire. Along the way he becomes less of a misogynist jackass and they bond.

    —I should mention that it is my life’s ambition to be as badass and as helpful as Giles Redferne, dressed in wolfskins, bursting in the front door shouting, “TELL ME YOUR WOES!”

    —This movie also contains:

    —veteran character actress Mary Woronov, who is always good to see;

    —a warlock who chugs flying potion and flies around like Superman in a bad yet lovable special effect;

    —an Amish family being plagued by evil magic that actually sours the cream and sickens the livestock;

    —a human tongue cooked in an omelet;

    —Richard E. Grant skewering Julian Sands with a weathervane spike and hauling him around like a balloon on a string;

    —Kassandra nailing the Warlock’s footprints to the ground to torture him, so we can look at Julian Sands’ bare feet some more;

    —Kassandra merrily committing credit card fraud everywhere in the name of stopping the Apocalypse;

    —our heroes marching onto a plane carrying a five-foot metal spear (it was a more innocent time);

    —the Warlock patting a pregnant woman’s belly and telling her that her twins will be born safe and healthy and un-deformed, IF she cooperates with him;

    —terrible Hollywood impressions of Boston, mostly shot with soundstages and greenscreens (did you know you can see right into downtown from Copp’s Hill? /nitpick) and one nice establishing shot of Paul Revere’s house in the actual North End.


    If you like supernatural horror and any of the things I just mentioned, then this is the film for you. It doesn’t get enough love, so I thought I’d give it some.

    2:02 pm
    I want so many things that I just cannot get,
    I want a big old house and garden and a snake as a pet,
    I want three thousand pretty dresses and like fifty sharp suits,
    But that doesn't matter now, because I've put on my boots.

    My stompy boots
    Stompy boots
    I am older, I am wiser,
    I own neither king nor Kaiser,
    When I wear my stompy boots,
    My stompy boots.

    They're size ten stompy boots and they're as red as a rose,
    So big I can't tip over when the stormy wind blows.
    And when I walk down the street, the boys are swayed to their roots,
    And people shout, "Wherever did you get those stompy boots?!"

    My stompy boots
    Stompy boots
    Life is always ten times brighter
    "Am I not a bonny fighter?"
    When I wear my stompy boots,
    My stompy boots.

    Wear your armor, wear your talismans, your royal robe and crown,
    Wear that one thing that makes you too damn big to tear down.
    To the tune of "I'm the boss" played on enthusiastic lutes,
    I'll be wiggling my toes inside my big old stompy boots.

    My stompy boots
    Stompy boots
    So whatever Fate may toss us
    I will stand like a Colossus,
    When I wear my stompy boots,
    My stompy boots.


    The weather is finally cold enough for me to wear my Docs, and this pleases me.
    Sunday, September 28th, 2014
    2:58 am
    Twist the bones and bend the back
    Hocus Pocus is one of those movies I love so much it's hard for me to write rationally about it. I watched it as a preteen who didn't see many movies, and I thought it was the best thing ever. Recently I rewatched it with kestrell, and then again with other friends. It has held up really well.

    This movie relies on the audience agreeing to believe that there were real witches at Salem. Funnily, that has never annoyed me. Everywhere else, that idea has made me explode with wrath. (Q: How many witches were executed in Salem? A: None.) But in this case, I don't mind it. I think this movie was so blatantly ahistorical that it made my twelve-year-old self go off and look up the real facts of the matter. So there you go, it made me do research. Supernatural horror: it will help your kids educate themselves. Sometimes out of sheer dread. Anyway, all you have to do to enjoy this movie is to tell yourself it's happening in the alternate universe where witchcraft is real, the Satan-worshiping-child-murdering-broomstick-flying witches meme is true, and the Salem witch hysteria continued into November of 1693 and actually happened in Salem. There you go, out of your difficulty at once!

    Now that's out of the way. Let me gush a little.


    --The Sanderson sisters (Winnie, Mary, and Sarah) are fantastic comedy performances who do not get enough love or recognition from horror fans or pop culture in general. As Kestrell said, "They're like the witchy Marx Sisters!"
    --This movie is way the hell more entertaining and thought-provoking than it had to be. It's a kids' Halloween movie about witches and talking cats; everybody could have flung it together halfheartedly between other gigs, but instead the writers, director and actors all seem to be bringing their A-game.
    --Bette Midler is a majestical being. I read somewhere that this was her favorite of all her roles, which is heartwarming in the same way as Vincent Price's saying that he'd achieved his fondest goal in life now that he'd been on the Muppet Show and been bitten on the neck by Kermit.
    --This movie is the best thing Sarah Jessica Parker has ever done, full stop.
    --The two human girls of this movie are pretty badass, and:
    --They both become witches too, in their own way.

    Anybody disagree? No? Good.

    Let me tell you how much I love Winnie Sanderson.

    Firebrands of Hell

    "We are just three kindly old spinster ladies!"
    "Uh... Spending a quiet evening at home!
    "Sucking the LIVES out of LITTLE CHILDREN!"

    So, I love funny female villainy. I can't get enough of it. There's not enough of it in fiction; it seems we can have female villains aplenty, but women aren't often allowed to be funny, and villains who are women and get to have some laughs? Vanishingly rare. Every time I find a good example, I consume it greedily. And of all female villains, Winnie, Mary, and Sarah Sanderson make me laugh most.

    It's the way they move. The way they physically relate to each other. They have the body language of people who have known each other all their lives. It's the little things: moving in unison without having to think about it, having facial tics and abusive patterns that none of them think are at all odd or unusual. Walking in step everywhere they go with their skirts hiked up and their heads thrust forward and swaying like cobras. The first time I saw them do this, I assumed it was a one-time joke. But, no: they really do walk like that all the time. Most actors wouldn't put this much thought into every little gesture. As I said, the performers didn't have to be this good, and yet they are. Each of the three witches moves in a distinct way, is uniquely herself. You don't look at them and go, "Gee, that's a funny performance," you assume that she gets up in the morning and behaves this way every day of her life.

    Winnie's my favorite. Of course she is. We tall red-haired buck-toothed wild-eyed women who wear a lot of green and have maniacal laughs have to stick together. Seriously, I want to cosplay as her (but you can't have just one Sanderson sister, and I'm having one hell of a time recruiting friends to be Mary and Sarah. It's like people don't WANT me to bully and boss them and blow my nose on them, or something). Isn't this the best look ever? This is the best look ever. Can't you just see me? Yes, Winnie can shoot Sith lightning out of her hands because of reasons.

    Dazzle me, my darling.Collapse )
    Tuesday, September 23rd, 2014
    12:59 am
    Always wears an evil frown

    (Cross-posted from tumblr because why not)

    Two things make a trend, three or more things make a genre. I’ve come to realize that there is a very small musical niche of songs about horror movie actors.

    Bauhaus, “Bela Lugosi’s Dead

    White on white translucent black capes

    Back on the rack

    The Jazz Butcher Conspiracy, “Peter Lorre (He’s A Brick)

    Don’t spit on his shoes

    Or mess up his hair

    Or he will shoot you dead

    And go back upstairs

    The Jellybottys, “Peter Cushing Lives In Whitstable


    Marquis De Sade, “Conrad Veidt

    Conrad Veidt danse

    Les cris disseques dans d’epais catalogues

    Les levres articulent le lent monologue

    Voltaire, “The Devil And Mr. Jones

    He sits in the dark
    Looking into the glass
    with his hand in the jar
    It’s a sticky white mess.
    He applies it and he wonders “How’d I ever get here?”
    Piercing his reflection, as he pulls off an ear.


    Part 1 of 2; tomorrow I’ll line up some songs that are more generally about horror movies. This post now contains all the songs I can recall about horror actors. I feel oddly incomplete, because as far as I know, Boris Karloff doesn’t have a song about him. (Which means it’s now all up to us.)

    Sunday, September 21st, 2014
    2:48 am
    Even dead in a tale where the witches dwell
    So, there's something you all should know about me. I have this massive crush on the actor Doug Jones. It hit me about a month ago when I was on YouTube looking for something unrelated, and it's only grown stronger since then.

    Let me explain. You've probably seen him in something if you're into genre film in any way--he's famous for having played a lot of monsters, creatures, and nonhumans, most famously the Faun and the Pale Man in Pan's Labyrinth, Abe Sapien in the Hellboy movies, and in the second Fantastic Four movie as No Junk McShinyBuns the Silver Surfer. (Not even for Doug Jones am I watching that movie, but I hear his performance is the good part.) And he played the lead Gentleman in that one episode of BtVS that made everyone so uncomfortable (it was "Hush"--there's nothing like being deprived of speech to provoke unease).

    Also, that's Jones in my icon as Billy the dorky zombie from Hocus Pocus. He has less than ten minutes of screen time, but they're good minutes.

    I remember that one from my childhood--which is rare for me, because before my teens we didn't have a TV in the house and I rarely saw anything in the theaters that wasn't animation. But I watched Hocus Pocus right after it came out, and despite watching it with a bunch of numbskulled fellow twelve-year-olds who talked through the whole thing, I loved every second of it. Of course I did. It had witches and magic and flying broomsticks and a talking black cat and cemeteries and an entire town dancing itself to death and old people drinking children's souls to become young again. So it was pretty much made for me personally, as much as if the filmmakers had known my tastes. I remember also that the three harridan witches raised a dead ex-boyfriend as a zombie to do their bidding. With his lips sewn shut. I identified with him, even if I didn't know that use of the word "identified" at the time. There's nothing like being deprived of speech to provoke unease.

    There is this lovely phenomenon among people who saw Hocus Pocus in their early youth. I re-watched the whole movie via clips on YouTube, and every time there was a scene where Billy Butcherson appeared, someone or other was sure to have left a comment to the video that said something like, "I had such a crush on Billy when I was a kid! Yep, I was a baby bat even then." And someone else will say, "OMG me too! I'm such a freak!" and a third woman will add, "Don't worry, I did too." It's adorable. And it happens every single time this character is mentioned in a comment thread. (For the record, Doug Jones knows that having-a-girlhood-crush-on-Billy is a common thing, because grown fans come up to him in person and tell him about it. From all I can tell, he thinks it's cute and hilarious.) As for me, zombies are my people, so it doesn't seem freaky.

    In my recent bout of joy at rediscovering a performer whom I love, I've watched a bunch of stuff of Jones's. By his own admission he was in a lot of turkeys early in his career, so I'm not going to try to view an exhaustive list of every film and TV appearance in the history of ever. But a lot of his work is in films that I think I'll like or can at least sit through for his performance, so I have many options. Gods be good to us, there is a movie out there called Raze which features Zoe Bell as the latest in a series of women kidnapped and forced to fight in gladiatorial matches in secret underground arenas for the entertainment of jaded rich people. Jones plays the major villain. I'm probably going to watch it no matter what it's like, so fingers crossed that it's a lot of campy fun and doesn't try to take itself seriously. The most recent thing of his that I tried was an episode of a Canadian TV series called "Fear Itself" where he plays a wendigo. It interested me for a few reasons; I'll post about that separately. Not a lot of wendigos in pop culture. They could use a little more love, it seems to me. There's apparently one in "Supernatural" but that's about it in the grand scheme of things.

    Of course I want to see Doug Jones in all kinds of roles. I wish he'd do more human characters; he's exceedingly tall and thin, and so hyperflexible he can put his leg behind his neck. He's also a mime and a contortionist. For someone who's spent a lot of professional time having monstrous/inhuman bodies built around him, his own physical appearance is fascinating without special effects. (Hear me out: this guy as Jack Point in The Yeomen of the Guard. Right?!)

    aunt_zelda and I have an ongoing conversation on Tumblr where we cast him in imaginary projects like "Wingmen," which would be a buddy cop show with him and Andy Serkis playing twenty different roles and having slashy subtext. (Then it turned out that Jones himself knows that Tumblr exists and has an account and reads people's posts about him AND likes "Wingmen." And then Zelda and I both exploded into a million pink candy hearts. The End.) He has muse-like powers for everybody, not only for Guillermo del Toro.

    Like a lot of classic horror actors I admire, Jones out of character is very cute and winsome, with elegant hands and big soulful eyes. Yep. I'm crushing, here, and I don't care who knows it. The man has provided us with the most potent images of monstrousness to appear in recent years, and as if that weren't enough, he seems charming and funny and nice to his fanbase. Here he is at a con (it's the infamous Dashcon), dancing and being twirled at the evening party. Look at those legs. The man dances like Jack Skellington.

    csecooney? ~Yoohoo~ When there is a movie version of The Big Bah-Ha and "Wild Over Tombs Does Grow," this is the man who can play the Flabberghast. No one else can do him justice. Am I right or am I right?! (I don't know what he's doing in that last one. Velociraptor impressions, probably.)

    Get this, people: VOLTAIRE WROTE A SONG ABOUT HIM. Let me run that by you again. Voltaire the cabaret singer/songwriter/pirate/highwayman/vampire/elf is a huge fan of Doug Jones, and wrote a song about him called "The Devil And Mr. Jones," showcasing a ton of fannish love. Check it out here--I love it, but be warned the chorus is one big mass of in-jokes for those who know exactly who directed Jones in what movie. I adore things like this, where one person whom I admire has a crush on has affection for someone else I hold dear. Makes me more at ease about being a fangirl, too.

    There, I feel better for having talked about it. Share your own celebrity crushes in the comments, if you like.
    Thursday, September 11th, 2014
    2:36 am
    "Holy smokes," the preacher shouted
    Driveby rec: "Calvary" with Brendan Gleeson. I just saw it in the theater and I'm really glad I did. It's sad and scary and funny and occasionally horrifying. I loved it. I might go see it again. If you like movies or plays scripted by Martin McDonagh, you'll prolly like this: it's like the kinder, gentler, more cerebral McDonagh. Actually, forget "like"--that's exactly what it IS, because this one was written and directed by John Patrick McDonagh, actual brother of Martin.

    Brendan Gleeson is wonderful to look at. I've liked him ever since he broke my heart as Mad-Eye Moody, but this is my favorite performance he's ever done. As Father James, he is ponderous, patient, and very kind in a no-bullshit kind of way. The entire movie can be summed up as Messed-Up People Dump On Father James and it's an endless parade of sinister peasants, pompous asses, and self-obsessed jerks flocking up to Father James to cling to him for support or to use him as a verbal punching bag. He just flinches slightly and absorbs insults with his whole body. When he has a really miserable day his face turns into this: B-(  I'd like to see him and Doug Jones in a movie together: the bear and the greyhound.

    I've never been to Ireland. People keep telling me I should go, pretty much because I look "Irish" (my genes are from all over, and really, I could give a shit about my ancestry, it's what interests me that counts). I don't have the same enthusiasm for Ireland that people expect me to have. But I'd rather like to visit the place one day, because everything I've ever watched set in Ireland suggests that it's a ruggedly beautiful country populated 100% by macabre people who murder each other's dogs and seduce each other's boyfriends while spouting quotable one-liners. I'm going to be so let down when I go over there and no one even knows what an epigram is.
    Wednesday, September 10th, 2014
    11:56 am
    advice: dentist
    Does anyone in the greater Boston area have a dentist they like or at least can tolerate? I'm actively looking for recommendations. The clinic I've been going to has a dental program that makes me somewhat uncomfortable (nothing evil, but they talk down to me/refuse me input in the process/acted like I was an hysteric when I called a halt to a procedure), and I'd like to see if I can do better.

    Things I seek:

    --a dental cleaning
    --doctor/dental hygienist combo who will actually tell me what they want to do before they do it
    --people you would trust not to push you into expensive work you didn't need
    --a setup that's professional enough to have a chairside sink

    ...My life experience tells me that I can pick any two of those things. But what the hell: maybe one of you has a dentist you swear by. I used to go to my childhood dentist for absolutely everything--he wasn't perfect, but I knew him really well and liked him and knew all the ways I could and couldn't trust him--but he's two hours away and I don't want to have to drive across the state every time I need a dental checkup. I've been neglecting dental visits ever since I moved to Boston, except for one cleaning last year, and even though I have excellent dental hygiene, I need to see a dentist as soon as I can, for my own peace of mind.
    Thursday, September 4th, 2014
    10:29 am
    "Human Nature," Voltaire
    Driveby rec: here is a fresh-as-hell Voltaire song, and he's in full-on Trekkie mode.

    I'm falling into a super nova and that super nova's you.
    2:32 am
    Robert Burns, "Song Composed in August"
    Now westlin winds and slaught'ring guns 
    Bring Autumn's pleasant weather; 
    The moorcock springs on whirring wings 
    Amang the blooming heather: 
    Now waving grain, wide o'er the plain, 
    Delights the weary farmer; 
    And the moon shines bright, as I rove by night, 
    To muse upon my charmer. 
    The paitrick loves the fruitful fells, 
    The plover loves the mountains; 
    The woodcock haunts the lonely dells, 
    The soaring hern the fountains: 
    Thro' lofty groves the cushat roves, 
    The path of man to shun it; 
    The hazel bush o'erhangs the thrush, 
    The spreading thorn the linnet. 
    Thus ev'ry kind their pleasure find, 
    The savage and the tender; 
    Some social join, and leagues combine, 
    Some solitary wander: 
    Avaunt, away, the cruel sway! 
    Tyrannic man's dominion; 
    The sportsman's joy, the murd'ring cry, 
    The flutt'ring, gory pinion! 
    But, Peggy dear, the ev'ning's clear, 
    Thick flies the skimming swallow, 
    The sky is blue, the fields in view, 
    All fading - green and yellow: 
    Come let us stray our gladsome way, 
    And view the charms of Nature; 
    The rustling corn, the fruited thorn, 
    And ilka happy creature. 
    We'll gently walk, and sweetly talk, 
    While the silent moon shine clearly; 
    I'll grasp thy waist, and, fondly prest, 
    Swear how I lo'e thee dearly: 
    Not vernal show'rs to budding flow'rs, 
    Not Autumn to the farmer, 
    So dear can be as thou to me, 
    My fair, my lovely charmer!
    (From here; song sung here.)
    Wednesday, September 3rd, 2014
    9:11 am
    Can it be?
    YES! The humidity has cleared and I no longer feel like I'm living inside an armpit! No wonder I only had to have one fan on last night!

    Going out for a celebratory bike ride. 
    Tuesday, August 26th, 2014
    8:51 pm
    Leapin' lizards!
    "Son of a bbbbbb--son of a bbbb-bbb-b--son of a GUN! Ha! YOU thought I was going to say 'son of a bitch,' didn't ya?! HA!" --Porky Pig.

    I like mealy-mouthed swears. Minced oaths. I've come to like that term recently (I think alien_snipe introduced me to it). I've gone through this thing over the years where I periodically try swearing to see if it makes people take me more seriously. That never works. People act surprised and go OH my GOD you SWORE, I didn't know you could DO THAT.

    The thing is that I'm not even into swearing; almost every time I do it, I do it consciously for effect, rather than because it's a verbal reflex I can't help. So I rather like the fact that these days I veer the other direction and refrain from swearing except in extreme conditions. (My verbal reflexes are surprising. This one time when I was nearly creamed by a truck on the interstate, I was puzzled to hear that the words that came involuntarily from my atheistic mouth were, "Jesus Christ! Jesus Christ the Lord!")

    Sid Fleischman was a children's author I loved from my earliest reading life who was really good with the fake swears. The best ones sounded blasphemous or foul without actually being cusswords. "Yawhawin'" was a good one, to be used in the same context as you'd use "fuckin'" as an intensifier. There's a bit in my favorite book of Fleischman's, Jingo Django, where a highwayman shouts, "Great Keezer's ghost!" when he's shocked.

    I like Linkara's swearwords on Atop the Fourth Wall. Lewis Lovhaug is fond of mealy-mouthed swearwords, and I think he's stated more than once that he views actual swearing to be a lazy way of expressing yourself. My favorite Linkara-isms are "What the Funk and Wagnall is he doing?" and "What the Sam Hill..." which is just plain cute.

    My favorite mealy-mouthed profanities of all time are in the Pirates of the Caribbean movies, particularly the first one. Geoffrey Rush as Captain Barbossa has at least two great moments with cusswords. One is early on, when he's explaining his dark and troubled past to Elizabeth Swann. He describes himself and his men as spending their stolen gold pieces: Spent 'em, traded 'em and fritted 'em away, for drink and food and pleasurable company. Which is how you talk about visiting whorehouses, when you're talking to a young girl and the prospective audience includes children.

    Later, Barbossa shouts at his men, "Get after her, you feckless pack of ingrates!" which achieves the ultimate goal of sounding vile and insulting without actually being vulgar.

    What about you all? What are your favorite minced oaths? Sound off in the comments if you want to share a good one.
    Sunday, August 24th, 2014
    11:52 pm
    Who knows upon what soil they fed their hungry thirsty roots?
    Long busy week full of customer service. My smilers are almost worn out. Got to go be pleasant again tomorrow all afternoon and evening. Uhhhgh. I'm slightly groggy and short on sleep, but I'm sick of not posting here, but my use of words is weird right now while I'm so underslept, you see my difficulty.

    On the plus side, today I slipped off from work and picked blackberries out on Spectacle Island.

    I didn't know there would be any berries left; as far as I knew, they all peaked a few weeks ago. But as I wandered, there they were, huge and purple and gorgeous. I picked for about an hour in the hot midday sun, stuffing handfuls of fat juicy berries into my mouth and then dropping a few in my hat, and taking periodic breaks to look down the hill at the harbor. It looked a little like this:

    Except brighter, and I can't find a view from the side of the island I was on, which looks into the outer harbor and the lighthouse shoals. So much blue.

    I brought home my work-uniform cap stuffed with blackberries, covered in a red handkerchief. It was dripping slightly by the time I got home. There were probably some people on the train who wondered if I was keeping a dead animal or severed body part in there.

    Now I have made the berries into a cobbler, which I'm eating 1/4 of as we speak. (I should have taken photos of the process, but (a) asakiyume does that sort of thing far better, and (b) my talents do not tend that way, and there would be berry juice down my phone now if I'd tried.)

    I'm not saying I'm a witch, but if I WAS a witch, this blackberry cobbler would have a virtue of recalling to your mind some good idea or pleasant memory which you hadn't recalled for years and which otherwise would have been lost to you. I think that's a good quality for a dish to have. I wish I could push servings through the internet to everybody.
    Tuesday, August 19th, 2014
    9:27 pm
    urban fantasy slapstick supernatural horror suspense

    A sheet of paper on my floor says, in my handwriting:

    ...I bit my arm, I sucked the blood,
    And cried, A sail! a sail!

    [lower down the page, still in my handwriting:]

    4 AM me thought this important a few nights ago. Make what you can of it.


    Today at work, during my usually boring ferry shift, twenty or so LARPers got on the inter-island boat. They came marching down the dock in the sunlight, decked out gorgeously in green satin, black leather armor, canvas battledress, chainmail, T-tunics, helmets, faceplates in the shape of dragon muzzles. Foam arrows, boffer swords, massive packs for a camping trip that will last till Friday in real time. I got on the microphone and said, "I understand we have adventurers on board! Welcome! Please come talk to the NPC who has the mike, and tell her all about what you're up to!" It turns out they're a Dreamlands-based LARP, which means Lovecraft's "The Dream-Quest of Unknown Kadath" territory, which is perfect for sailing from one dubiously-inhabited-island-filled-with-overgrown-ruins to the next. The GMs and I gushed about how lovely it all was. The only thing that would have made it better would have been if I'd been able to hand out birdseed spell packets, but there's not enough room in my messenger bag to carry those with me all the time on the off chance that I'll meet adventurers.


    Tasks for this week's therapy session include, "Explain to Therapist how my obsession with zombies isn't a form of self-loathing or depression, but a reassuring hobby or at worst a coping mechanism." Therapy has been going well overall, but I think Therapist was puzzled by the zombie thing when it came up last week. I am reminded of the time when K., my nice older housemate from a few apartments ago, heard that I was going to Mount Auburn Cemetery to explore and said blankly, "Why would you do that? Is someone you know buried there?" and was baffled by all my attempts to explain that I just liked to go to cemeteries for fun.


    I have a silver crow skull pendant on a black leather cord. Elements bought separately and assembled by me. I feel kind of badass when I wear it; it's satisfyingly heavy and simple. Photos of this and other elements of my life coming soon. I'm really looking forward to Halloween.


    There is a pig skull buried in my back yard. It's been there just over a year, and I need to get on with the task of digging it up and cleaning it fully. I don't think I posted about this, but the events that led to its being in the backyard run somewhat thus:
    My boss at the time throws a huge barbecue for his thirtieth birthday, including a whole roast pig in a giant roasting oven supplied by Frankie the tiny old Dominican chef who lives next door. A series of party guests are drafted into turning the spit. The pig carcass looks sinister.
    The other guests eat most of the pig. I think to myself, "If I cleaned that skull off, then I would have a pig skull to use as a paperweight, and that would be as Goth as hell."
    "Uh, Frankie, would you mind if I took the head home?"
    *Frankie nods, smiles, whips out a machete as big as he is, and severs the pig head*
    I take the pig head home wrapped in plastic bags and giving off a delicious-to-meat-eaters smell of smoky barbecue. It's late and I'm sunburned and drunk and I just want to go to bed, so I stick the bundle in the freezer and go to my bedroom to sleep for ten hours.
    The next morning I lurch downstairs and look at the whiteboard where my six housemates and I leave each other passive-aggressive notes. Today's note is rather plaintive. It says, "WHY IS THERE A HEAD IN THE LEFT-HAND FREEZER? IT FELL ON MY FOOT WHEN I OPENED THE DOOR."
    Swift burial of pig head in backyard, where hopefully it will turn into a clean pig skull over the course of months.
    And there it's been ever since, under a flat rock to keep raccoons from digging it up. I need to dig it up, clean it further with Borax, and make it into a fancy hat or a Piggy Lwyd or something dashing like that.
    Wednesday, August 13th, 2014
    11:23 pm
    "We almost never really kill people."
    Crossposted from Tumblr because I went into more detail than I'd thought I would. Let's see if the links still work.

    Short, wonderful interview with Voltaire, taken a few years ago. I just realized that some of you might not be familiar with this majestic person. He’s only one of my favorite songwriters EVER, and he says insightful things in this interview about the Goth aesthetic/worldview as a reaction against having to perform happiness.

    (But look at that smile... *_*)

    Song rec time!

    Tons of Voltaire’s work is available online, as he has embraced YouTube. His channel, the Lair of Voltaire.

    USS Make Shit Up, the song most people involved in fandom got to know him by.

    When You’re Evil, Feathery Wings, and Almost Human: devils and angels.

    The Headless Waltz, which is an earworm.

    Irresponsible. Is it so wrong if I don’t pay my rent?/ No responsibility, I gave it up for Lent/ Sell your wares, pollute the air, I don’t care/ Fresh air’s for squares…

    The Mechanical Girl. I used to listen to this over and over when I got sad. Inspired by Miyazaki’s “Castle in the Sky.”

    Ravens Land, which I like to pair with Where’s the Girl?

    Graveyard Picnic, which I’ve adopted as my theme song.

    #1 Fan: could have been a cruel satire, is surprisingly gentle.

    Raised by Bats: the latest I’ve heard from him. Everything I could have hoped and more.

    What do you all think? Please jump in and rec your favorites if I’ve missed anything.

    4:54 pm
    To everyone here who's a fan of Robin Williams: I'm sorry he is gone. I wasn't into his work, but I've been reading the reactions of his fans and realizing I'm seeing people lose a friend or a beloved teacher or a part of their childhood.

    There is some useful conversation going on about depression and suicide, around the balderdash that uninformed people tend to say in the wake of a celebrity death. This comic by Erika Moen is relevant: I Want To Live.

    I went to the "Good Will Hunting Bench" in the Public Garden yesterday, because I wanted to see what people had written on the sidewalk. There were dozens of people standing around the bench looking thoughtful and sad and sometimes quietly talking. All ages and all styles of clothing, but all with the same sad contemplative look. I'll post some sample quotes from the chalked sidewalk of tributes later on when I get a chance. The bench was covered in flowers and candles and rainbow whirligigs, and a young balloon artist came forward with this whole elaborate balloon sculpture in the shape of Genie from Aladddin and tied it to the side of the bench. Total silence, for the most part. Just folks being quiet together. 
    Friday, August 1st, 2014
    8:20 pm
    Just like my old bony self again
    Recently, I've been enjoying watching makeup tutorials by Pinkstylist. The Jack Skellington look and the Sally look particularly charm me.

    I've also been laughing my ass off at the commercials foisted on me by YouTube. I'm watching makeup tutorials, therefore I'm interested in eyeshadow palettes and lip gloss and highlighter and lengthening mascara, right? RIGHT?

    Well, no offense to people who are into those things, but I'm just here to learn to build grisly head wounds and skull faces and burn scars, and gross zombie faces with dried strings of skin connecting the cheekbones to the jaw. 
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